If Only

A poem.
The illustration depicts Elijah McClain, a Black man wearing glasses, next to his violin. His eyes are closed.
Illustration by Laura Freeman 

For Elijah McClain (1996-2019). Killed by police in Aurora, Colo., he was known as a gentle soul who played his violin to soothe anxious animals in shelters. 

If only a violin could redeem
the world.

Your skin, glowing like the violin’s wood,
might still sing its humble lament.

Your fingers,
the supple dancers they were,

could skim across the violin’s
neck, could light each trembling

string. Your gentle
neck could guard the violin’s

shivering body, cradling its curves,
a lover.

If only we might be transformed,
to delight

in smallness, might cherish
a boy, a man, as whole as you.