Artist Statement: About the 'On Pilgrimage' Series
I was a reluctant artist, self-doubting leader and a broken soul.
I was in search of healing.
After a series of traumatic experiences that culminated with my hospitalization in Zambia, I went on a sabbatical in search of courage, tenacity, and renewal to continue in my vocation. It was early 2014, and we were entering into the year commemorating 20 years since the genocide in Rwanda. During this time, my mentors were leading a pilgrimage to Uganda and Rwanda to journey through places of immense pain and tremendous hope as a means to engage in the pain and hope in one’s active life. Because of my closely related work in Africa, I didn’t want to go — I knew I would have to intentionally delve into the hellish reality of a violent massacre I knew very little of. Simultaneously, I knew that by stepping into the pain, I would find the hope I was so desperately searching for. And so, together with eight other pilgrims, I went. We journeyed alongside of survivors and perpetrators of genocide as an attempt to identify in the incomprehensible pain that oppresses us all. It was through this experience that healing came in a profound way.
There, I experienced so much beauty as the juxtaposition of pain and hope became an embodied reality. I found immense healing in listening to the stories of utter grief blossoming into joy, betrayal into faithfulness, and death into life.
Neither words nor images can fully convey the emotional crises, psychological torment, and heart-wrenching pain the Rwandans experienced during the genocide. The “On Pilgrimage” series features the stories that impacted me most — the stories in which I found active examples of healing that has transcended into my experience. The juxtaposition of these stories, themes, and values are conveyed both in narrative and visual storytelling, each containing factual accounts and metaphors painted with a double-exposed photograph conveying an unlikely coexistence. As a way of remembering 100 days of killings, each series will be released weekly starting April 7, 2014, the day the genocide began 20 years ago.
I identify with these words from Francois, a former member of the Hutu-extremist militia responsible for carrying out the genocide:
“Telling my story helps me go back into the journey of what I’ve experienced — it gives me strength.”
As a photographer and activist, this series is the medium for telling my story — my story of identifying with both the oppressed and oppressor. On pilgrimage, I’ve learned that experiencing the brokenness of the world leads to a greater sense of internal healing. As I’ve begun to find healing in these paradoxical stories, my hope is that together we will begin to recognize the hope present in our situations of pain.
Through it, may a new journey commence — a journey intent on healing the brokenness of the world.